We hear from a carer who wants to reach out to LGBT people who have been affected by dementia.

Tom Hughes and his husband Mike Parish.

'People assume that when they retire life will be under their control, but this is the opposite.'

Mike Parish cares for husband Tom, his partner of over 40 years, who has a working diagnosis of HIV-associated neurocognitive disorder (HAND)

Mike gave up work in 2014 to support Tom, and he now wants to reach out to other lesbian, gay, bisexual and trans (LGBT) people who have been affected by dementia.  

Life together

Mike Parish and Tom Hughes, now both 62, met in 1975 and settled in London. Tom had moved down from Glasgow after a spell in the Merchant Navy.

They enjoyed cycling, socialising and exploring France on holiday, and Tom retains his interest in fossils and meteorites, which he collects and catalogues.

Diagnosed with HIV in 2003, Tom began to experience mild memory problems five years later. He also found it more difficult to understand new tasks. By 2011, these symptoms were affecting his work as a pensions adviser, forcing him to retire on medical grounds.

'I thought it was his employer being difficult - I didn't know his abilities were being eroded by the dementia,' says Mike.

Mike admits to experiencing some denial over Tom's condition.

'I would come home at 5.30pm and he was only just finishing his lunch, but your brain doesn't want it to be something unpleasant,' he says.

Turning point

A 'big trigger' came in 2014, when the couple were out at a restaurant. Mike returned from the toilet to find that Tom had only ordered food for himself rather than both of them.

'I asked him about it but he just looked at me,' says Mike. 'That was the absolute conscious turning point for me - I was shaken to the core.

'It's rare enough that it's too early to have a cast-iron plan for prognosis, treatment and therapy,' says Mike.

'I knew this was something different to what we'd experienced up until then.'

Almost two years ago, Tom was diagnosed with HAND. This is a condition where HIV causes problems in the brain that can affect memory, concentration and decision-making.

'It's rare enough that it's too early to have a cast-iron plan for prognosis, treatment and therapy,' says Mike.

'There's not enough good research or information to give you enough of a handle to start planning your lives around.'

Mike Parish.

Partner support

Mike has accompanied Tom to countless medical appointments, and he wonders how people get what they need without the support of a partner.

'Do they have an advocate? That's the issue,' he says.

'Every time we meet a health professional, I act as a go-between for all of them.

'There's also lasting power of attorney, a will, benefits - it takes an intense amount of time.'

In late 2014, Mike retired from his job with the fire brigade, training people in emergency incident management, to care for Tom full time, a role he describes as 'living the life of two people'.

He says that Tom's cognitive abilities fluctuate, meaning every day is different.

'Tom needs help with things like getting dressed and brushing his teeth, but then sometimes he'll go and switch off something that I didn't even realise I'd left on,' says Mike.

Mike has found caring for his husband mostly rewarding, though sometimes confusing and frustrating.

'When I get angry, I have to check myself. Is it because my retirement isn't what I expected it to be? Am I angry at my own circumstances? I suppose yes I am,' he says.

'Am I angry Tom has an illness? Yes of course.

'But when I'm frustrated at him, I know it's not him - it's not deliberate.'

Mike is in two minds about taking a break from his caring duties.

'People say to me you need a rest, but all I'll be thinking is, "Is he alright?" So I'm torn.'

No substitute 

Mike is determined to keep Tom in his own home.

'If he ever did have to go into care, how can I be sure that they understand and love him as much as I do?' he says.

'I'm resisting letting go, because who can substitute for me, the person he's lived with for 40 years?'

Mike says that being gay adds an extra layer of concern when considering residential care.

'Over the years Tom's been beaten up and I've been chased down the street. Then in the early 80s, the HIV issue came along. We know what it's like to be on the rough end of things,' he says.

'When you've been in a threatening environment, you hold onto it for all of your life - you learn but still feel at risk.

'So do we go into a care home as the only gay person and think, "Is it safe to come out? Are staff gay friendly? Will they understand the relationship?"

'That's the fear we're confronted with.'

Mike and Tom are among the first members of Rainbow Café, a new memory café in London run by the charity Opening Doors London. The group offers support, activities and information to LGBT people with dementia and carers.

'For the first time in two-and-a-half years of looking, I've met other couples in the same situation,' says Mike.

'Out of 10 million people in London - where are they all? People are lost in the system.

'It's my personal mission to find out where these people are and how we can communicate.'

Mike Parish and husband Tom Hughes.

Safe and relevant

Mike believes it's vital that LGBT people can access support that feels safe and relevant to them.

'If I was shy and retiring, which I used to be, I might find it really challenging to go into a room of 30 or 40 people and introduce us to a group as the only gay couple,' he says.

'Other people may not say they're gay or may not turn up - which is why a specific gay group is so important, at least for someone initially.'

'People could make our lives difficult, which is an issue, but if we don't do this then who is going to?' says Mike.

Mike and Tom have been raising awareness of LGBT dementia issues through a series of talks, presentations and media interviews.

Mike hopes that going public with their story will generate something positive from an otherwise difficult situation, while he also hopes the work will serve as a legacy for Tom.

'People could make our lives difficult, which is an issue, but if we don't do this then who is going to?' he says.

'Sometimes you've got to stand up in the face of rejection and hurt in order to change things.

'At the start of anything that brings change, the only way is to step into the light.'

Next steps

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